“It’s Been A While”

It felt like forever
How long I hated me
The way my hair wasn’t just so
The label on my clothes
And let’s not get started on my nose

It felt like forever
How long I hated me
Who I was
How I looked
Wasn’t for your defining

I still hear the voices
You screw up
You’re not enough
Never will be
Never have been

It felt like forever
But forever isn’t here

It’s been a while
Since God entered my life
Slowly, steadily
Took over my mind

Fed up with fear
He took captive
The hurt, the abuse
The lies, the shame

It’s been a while since
I stopped listening

I turn to the truth
yearn for the truth
When it feels like forever
There’s another tomorrow

The tomorrow replaces
what yesterday faced
Seeking you for me
Finding me wrapped up in shame

My identity wrapped up
In a father
who even loves you

When the memories
Goals to people please
creep inside
trying to hide within

Truth kicks them out
This heart is not your home
Thanks to God
I am not alone